good grief

life is so completely heartless and messed up sometimes...
it's difficult to want to help someone through grief, when you can't really.
sigh.

this morning is a beautiful one. the fog is still sitting on the ground, making the world look like there is a forest fire nearby. i was able to put together a new song this morning while sebastian danced to it. he does this awesome little baby bop dance, it melts my heart to see it. these bright moments, so warm, so rare...they are what life is all about.


yesterday, i taught sebastian to make his monkey "ooh ooh ohh" sound when I ask him, "what sound does the president make?" pretty funny...i need to put that on video.

i've been so very tired all week long...i dont know what it is, but i have just felt completely drained. so unlike me...

i will make an attempt to get out tonite or tomorrow nite. no guarantees!

i've been reading ezra pound's collected works before bedtime and during my nightly bath. i love, love, love him. he's just...dreamy. pound and borges are my two all-time favorite poets. i am also halfway through oscar wilde's dorian gray...i love it.

i talked to my old band mate and best friend star today...gave her a huge update about whats really going on in my life. i often wish she wasnt living in los angeles...i miss her so.