goth nite

sometimes i forget how shy i am. last nite for example, i decided to go to embers for their infamous "goth nite" and put on a dress and made myself presentable to the public...i wore my 100 year old victorian coat and everything. i went alone. i was too nervous/shy to dance for the first, ummm...3 hours! but finally a nick cave song came on and i was inspired to skake a leg so to speak. (although goth dancing is fun it looks a bit silly compared to 1960's motown back up singers or some such, but i dont really care...) although there were a couple scary incidents (like 50+ y.o. man buying me a drink and not leaving my table even when i excused myself and left it for over and hour to dance...i had to be resued by a friendly stranger) i think i met a few truly lovely people and i may even go back next week.
as much as i am constantly being disappointed by the human race, i never lose hope. never.